Quit Waiting!

“People wait all week for Friday, all year for summer, all life for happiness.”

Waiting…I am so not good at waiting…it kills me.  I have been really working on patience, but I am like a little kid on Christmas Eve trying to go to sleep when it comes to waiting for things…I am ridiculously impatient and excited and frustrated and all those type of emotions rolled into one.

For weeks now we have been waiting for my daughter’s mission call to come in the mail which will tell us where she will be going to do service for 18 months. When it didn’t come last week I worked really hard to not think about it so I could patiently wait for this week’s mail to arrive, and I think I did pretty dang good considering it is me and I am normally horrible at waiting on anything.  So I made it through the weekend and we got word that the letter was put into the mail Tuesday and we fully expected that it would arrive today.  We were all on pins and needles waiting for the mail to arrive today with our friends and family on notice that we would gather to open her letter together tonight. And then the call came from my daughter letting me know that she had opened her mailbox to find no letter had come today.  ARGH!  And so we will have to repeat the whole sorted affair again tomorrow….UGH!

As I sat down tonight to start texted and emailing the update to people I came across the opening quote.

“People wait all week for Friday, all year for summer, all life for happiness.”

And it made me realize that today I am being one of those people who is allowing herself to go into that mode of waiting on something to enjoy being happy, and that is NOT someone I want to be.  Heck I have a million reasons in my life to be happy every single day and I should not let the fact that I have to wait another day or so to see her open that letter for me to just enjoy being happy now.

When I look back on my day today I had a super busy day that was full of great experiences, yet I spent the entire day focused on waiting for her letter and then on being disappointed when it didn’t come.  I let waiting consume my entire thoughts today, when the reality is I should have been enjoying the moments and the people that were part of my day today instead.  Shame on me.

For the rest of tonight and tomorrow I am going to try and do better.  I am going to try to stop focusing on the letter that hasn’t come yet and instead just enjoy my night and enjoying my day tomorrow. The truth is that it will be hard for me to stop focusing on the letter but I am going to make a concerted effort not to because all that is doing is distracting me from being present in the right now, which is hindering my ability to enjoy the present.  My advice today is really advice to myself – QUIT WAITING FOR HAPPINESS…JUST ENJOY THE PRESENT!  Sorry but the capital letters were necessary as I had to scream it to myself to make sure I would hear it 🙂

Have a crazy good day tomorrow!

~Amy

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