“…you know that a good, long session of weeping can often make you feel better, even if your circumstances have not changed one bit.” – Lemony Snicket

So I will start by admitting that what I am about to tell you might seem a little ridiculous so right up front I am going to just admit that, but here it is anyway…..Today sucked.  Like really, really bad.  It truly did.  Like, I want to cry and I don’t cry often.  Everything seemed to go wrong from the start of the morning until I sit here tonight writing this.  We had stone workers that decided simply not to show up today on the jobsite even though they were supposed to finish their part last October and haven’t, but hey they just didn’t feel like coming to work today apparently, oh, and what about the lighting company that flat out lied to us about having ordered our wall sconces for the main lobby that we paid him for last December only to find out from the manufacturer that he never actually ordered them, and heck, who cares that the contractor is now past due on the contractual date to complete our house and there are a million things still not finished…right?!?

Oh, but my day go so much better – I called Bloomingdale’s to find out why the Ralph Lauren bed I ordered clear back last November of last year still had not arrived only to be told that they were now unable to get that bed even though they charged me for it in full last November!  To make matters worse I bought the entire furniture set that goes with that bed – we are talking night stands, dressers, bookcase, lamps, and I even had the sheets embroidered with my sons initials as this is the furniture set I bought for his new bedroom to surprise him when he gets home from his mission.  And NOW they are telling me they can’t get me the bed that goes with all of that furniture in the set with the bedding I cannot return because I had his initials put on it.  And they couldn’t have told me the bed wasn’t available when I spent a fortune with them buying the furniture and bedding…no they had to wait until I called them again for the thousandth time after six months of calling to ask where the heck my bed was before they finally said, shucks, we don’t know but we can’t get it anymore.  WHAT?!?  So I immediately call Ralph Lauren to figure out what the heck is going on here and the gal that I just talked to an hour before I am now told wasn’t in the office today and they can’t get her – but I just talked to her an hour ago?!?!  Clearly she was in today or I talked to an imaginary her.  ARE YOU KIDDING ME!!!  I would expect bad service from some stores but we are talking Bloomingdale’s and Ralph Lauren! You would think those companies would have been safe to trust with such a large purchase….well apparently not so much!

And that was all before lunchtime today :)….and the afternoon was even worse but I won’t bore you with the details.  All I know is that as I sit here tonight typing this blog, what I really want to do is breakdown and cry.  And I know that sounds stupid because the fact is that I am truly blessed to be building a new house at all and I am so thankful that I can do that, so I don’t want to cry as in “poor me’ by any means…it’s more that I want to cry because I am super frustrated that I have worked so hard to pay attention to every detail and to have everything mapped out and coordinated perfectly to make sure I could get this house done and have it perfect for my son’s return and no matter how hard I have worked, if other people don’t do their part too it ruins everything – and that is super frustrating.

It’s hard when you put your faith in other people and they let you down. It truly is.  And that has happened a tremendous amount throughout this home building experience. As a CEO I got so used to working with a team of people I could trust and count on and when you then have to go into a situation that is polar opposite and no one seems be able to keep their promises or their word…well that is just plain depressing.  So yeah….I kinda want to cry right now.

And then I found this quote and I realized THIS IS MY LIFE TODAY!  And it actually made me laugh out loud:

“Eventually something you love is going to be taken away. And then you will fall to the floor crying. And then, however much later, it is finally happening to you: you’re falling to the floor crying thinking, “I am falling to the floor crying,” but there’s an element of the ridiculous to it — you knew it would happen and, even worse, while you’re on the floor crying you look at the place where the wall meets the floor and you realize you didn’t paint it very well.” – Richard Siken

Been there….done that….except someone else messed up the paint and I am just the one who noticed it ;)….bust out the blue tape!!!

Here is hoping for a better day tomorrow.

~Amy