Remember the days when you got a sniffle and you didn\u2019t immediately jump to thinking you might have a deadly virus\u2026I really miss those days. It\u2019s impossible not to let your mind run wild these days as soon as you feel a little off.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Some days I wonder if the fears associated with the pandemic have weighed more heavily on all of us than the pandemic itself has. The fear of getting it, fear of giving it, fear of losing a loved one to it, and on and on. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
I don\u2019t worry nearly as much about getting it as I do about possibly giving it to someone I love and having them die because of it.\u00a0 That is a worry I am constantly battling with, and although I know it\u2019s irrational to put that burden on myself, I can\u2019t seem to get past worrying about it.\u00a0 When I with am anyone other than my husband (since he\u2019s already had it back in January) my mind starts to race with thoughts of \u201cwhat if I have it and don\u2019t know it\u2026what if I get them sick…what if I could have prevented them getting sick and I didn\u2019t\u2026I couldn\u2019t bear that\u2026.\u201d \u00a0<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Like I said, I\u2019m aware that those thought patterns are irrational but even so I just haven\u2019t been able to move past them yet\u2026but I\u2019m trying to\u2026 <\/p>\n\n\n\n
That’s my first reason for sharing I’ve been struggling with this – because step one to overcoming your issue is to admit you have the problem, so problem officially admitted. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
The second reason I\u2019m sharing it is I just can’t imagine that I am not the only person out there who is struggling with this so I wanted anyone else who is to know they aren\u2019t alone…I’m right there with ya…<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Now what\u2019s gonna be really awkward is if all of you reading this are like, \u201cyeah\u2026nope\u2026its just you Amy.\u201d That’d be super awkward for sure…<\/p>\n\n\n\n
But if that turns out to be the case then so be it…at least I’ve completed step one \ud83d\ude42 . <\/p>\n\n\n\n