Remember the days when you got a sniffle and you didn’t immediately jump to thinking you might have a deadly virus…I really miss those days. It’s impossible not to let your mind run wild these days as soon as you feel a little off.
Some days I wonder if the fears associated with the pandemic have weighed more heavily on all of us than the pandemic itself has. The fear of getting it, fear of giving it, fear of losing a loved one to it, and on and on.
I don’t worry nearly as much about getting it as I do about possibly giving it to someone I love and having them die because of it. That is a worry I am constantly battling with, and although I know it’s irrational to put that burden on myself, I can’t seem to get past worrying about it. When I with am anyone other than my husband (since he’s already had it back in January) my mind starts to race with thoughts of “what if I have it and don’t know it…what if I get them sick…what if I could have prevented them getting sick and I didn’t…I couldn’t bear that….”
Like I said, I’m aware that those thought patterns are irrational but even so I just haven’t been able to move past them yet…but I’m trying to…
That’s my first reason for sharing I’ve been struggling with this – because step one to overcoming your issue is to admit you have the problem, so problem officially admitted.
The second reason I’m sharing it is I just can’t imagine that I am not the only person out there who is struggling with this so I wanted anyone else who is to know they aren’t alone…I’m right there with ya…
Now what’s gonna be really awkward is if all of you reading this are like, “yeah…nope…its just you Amy.” That’d be super awkward for sure…
But if that turns out to be the case then so be it…at least I’ve completed step one 🙂 .
~Amy Rees Anderson (author of the book “What Awesome Looks Like: How To Excel in Business & Life” )
Nope. Not just you, Amy! 🙂